Web of Life Articles

“When we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the universe.” - John Muir

I study many art forms - both East and West - when I have the time to be aware. Often I romanticize the many movies I’ve seen where a student finds a teacher and the teacher refuses to teach the student. All these stories end with the teacher finally deciding to teach the student after the student passes some “test” of their determination. Often the teacher is portrayed to have always known and the test was planned from step one.

The search for this in a world of 6+ billion humans is - to say the least - not likely. Furthermore, I’m afraid my longing is much like that of a dog chasing a car, or an elementary boy chasing a high-school girl… what the hell would I do with it when I found it?! With the full-time job and the many volunteer commitments I’ve made, there isn’t much time anymore for the type of dedication to an art form that becoming a master requires. I’ve been studying Tai Chi for a few years and various alternative healing methods. I’m supposedly a Reiki Master Healer but I don’t much feel like one - supposing I would know what it feels like. I’m always in the middle of at least ten books, and I understand every word when I’m reading them (the subjects of which I intend to populate the walls of this blog with). I know I’m a good person and I know I’m damn good at what I do because I feel good about my skills. However, my search for something to master is a bit cliche I’m afraid.

I realized one day - very recently - that I am a Web master. The one thing I had never considered because it was right under my nose (which is where the cliche bit comes in). I’ve always had an ability to sense and understand the connectedness in any given situation that grabs my awareness. The Web which I speak of is the interconnected canvas of manifestation we all paint upon throughout the course of our existence. As it turns out, I have been mastering this ability for many years without focusing on it specifically. If I had, I would have applied the same self-limiting perfectionism to it that restricts me in the aforementioned areas of life.

My understanding of this reality is ever changing so don’t hold me to this, but I’m rather sure at this moment that my career mirrors these revelations more than any other area of my life. Working with computer networks and Internet programming has been a passion for many years (more about this here). My skills as an analyst are something I’m only recently coming to realize. Being able to see all of the connections with a given issue or situation - and bring them into the room - can feel a bit like trying to plug all the holes in a leaky barrel or holding many leashes of excited dogs. Somehow though, I’m often able to bring them together and walk the threads that connect them.

In this section of the blog I will attempt to chronicle these experiences - along with frustrated editorials and miscellaneous “did you know’s.” If you have happened upon these pages and find something worth commenting about, be sure to leave a comment or contact me directly. Above all else, I seek others who understand the world the way I understand it. This brings focus to my understanding and reassurance that I’m not alone.